Saturday, July 17, 2010

Little Finn

So my mom was teasing me that I had better update our blog before our child was 6 months old! She has a good point. Knowing me, that would probably be the case!

So here is the story of our little Finn:

It was July 5th and I had gone to bed the night before having some stomach cramps. I had had Braxton hick’s contractions before and so I thought it was strange to just have cramps in my lower stomach. I thought contractions would be your whole stomach. So, I tried to sleep (unsuccessfully I might add). I woke up the next morning and told my mom. She wasn’t sure either. I decided to go to the 4th of July parade with my family. We walked down to Main Street from my grandma’s house and that helped me feel a little better. After the parade we went to the park with my brother, his wife, and their kids. I was still feeling pretty uncomfortable. I went home and tried to research online what contractions should feel like (good ol’ Google right?). I didn’t find much. So still, wasn’t sure what was up. I tried to take a nap since I was so exhausted, but they were too painful. I decided to call the hospital and ask them what they thought. She said there was no real way to tell unless I came in. She said I could also try and take a bath and if it subsided I would know it was false labor. Well, since Cam was 8 or 9 hours away, we decided it wouldn’t hurt to just go to the hospital. (For those of you that don’t know, I have been living at home in Utah with my parents while Cam is in Montana doing a clinical rotation for school). Sorry if that was too much info for everyone. Just wanted to give the story!

We got to the hospital and the nurse checked me. I was dilated to a six!! I called Cam and told him to start the long trek to Vernal! They moved me into a labor room. I debated for a while but decided to get an epidural (hurray for modern medicine). The nurse knew Cam was quite some time away, so she just kept putting things off. She would say, “I’ll be back in 15 minutes to check you…” and then she would come back an hour later. I was getting nervous watching the little heart monitor, but Finn seemed to be doing okay. So, we just kept waiting and putting things off, watching that clock. I kept calling Cam periodically. He took the longer way home (taking 9 hours instead of 8). He finally showed up at 2:20am. It was such a miracle that he made it! We definitely had some heavenly help on our hands! We had been praying the previous weeks that he might be able to be there! The doctor came and they broke my water and I had him an hour later! It was so amazing! We love our little guy so much!

We named him Finneas (Finn) Ethan Hardy. He was 7 lbs 8.8 oz and 20 inches. I didn’t love the name Finneas at first, but Cam thought he needed something more substantial than just Finn. I guess he has a point. Also, when he is in trouble, “Finneas Ethan” probably packs more weight than just yelling “Finn Ethan”. We shall see!

I really can’t believe we are parents! It is such and unreal feeling. It was nice to have Cam here for a few days. He just jumped into the parent thing like this was his seventh kid and he had been doing it for years! I on the other hand am the clueless, scared one! He is back in Montana now. It has been hard not being with him! I don’t feel quite like myself without him. However, we have been extremely blessed through this whole school experience.

I feel extremely inadequate as a parent! Everything worries me! I’ve already cried I don’t know how many times! My parents probably think I am a nut case! He threw up the other day (Which is awful; its happened a few times!) and then he started gagging after that! I had a little break down/outburst. Pathetic I know! I have been glad to have some help around. We have a family edition Old Testament that Cam and I have been reading that has some quotes in it that relate to the stories. Here is one that really touched me the other day:

“We humble people, we who feel ourselves sometimes so worthless, so good-for-nothing, we are not so worthless as we think. There is not one of us but what God’s love has been expended upon. There is not one of us that He has not cared for and caressed….We may be insignificant…in our own eyes and in the eyes of others, but the truth remains that we are the children of God and that He has actually given His angels…charge concerning us, and they watch over us and have us in their keeping” – Elder George Q. Cannon

I believe some of those angels are mortal! I have some amazing family and friends! I have really felt God’s love lately and I am so grateful for his mercy. Even though I fall so short and struggle in many ways, I know that he listens to our prayers and is concerned with each of us.

Well, hopefully I will get some more pictures soon and keep up with this. We shall see! Miss you all! Here are a few pictures!




Excuse my hair! I had a bit of a fever and had put a wet rag on my head.




He had the hiccups. He gets them all the time!